I love you. And it hurts. I want you, even thought it kills me.
I can’t help but think of the past. What happened to make things the way they are now? My mind drifts so very often and I can’t escape this feeling. I just want to scream out to you and tell you what’s on my mind, but I won’t because you never told me what was going through your mind way back then.
I don’t have the words to make you feel better, but I do have the arms to hug you, I have the ears to listen to whatever you want to talk about, and I have a heart that’s aching to see you smile again.
you cannot go back in time.
even if you wish for it with every fiber of your being, your heart and soul, even if you think about it every day, trust me, i know.
And people are always asking how I’m doing, but every question still has you in it. And I never think about you. But you’re always on my mind.
I know you’ve heard that I’m doing just fine, that I’m happy now. But if you only knew what I still feel for you, I’ve pretended well, I tried being happy for once.
I don’t think I’ll ever be able to completely break down your wall. Even though I let you right through mine.
I keep thinking I’m over it. But then, if I go somewhere around a lot of people, I’m always looking for you.
I miss you, so much that it hurts. I’ve never missed anyone like this. I miss you so much, that I would do anything, just to spend five minutes with you.
& maybe 5 minutes meant nothing to you, but it sure as hell meant everything to me.
I guess what makes me different from most girls is that I’m not the type to squeal all over you and I don’t ask for your attention at all times. I know what I want and I know how to get it but I don’t hurt people along the way. I can be a bitch but I’m also a weird obnoxious loser, but hey, that’s the truth in me. I guess you can say I’m complicated but I’d rather be difficult than easy any day. I can be hard to figure out at times but if you know me, I’m not that much of a confusing person. So why don’t you actually open up your heart instead of just your eyes and take a look at me, then tell me that you love me.
Whenever I’m around you I feel like I’m letting my guard down. It’s dangerous, but still a strangely easy thing to do.
At times you drive me insane and most of the time you make me smile but one thing’s for sure, you’re like a song stuck in my mind. Sometimes you’re a screamo song and I just want to shut you up but at times you’re like a lullaby that plays the tune of my twisted heart.
There’s so many things I have to say. But I’d stay up all night, just to hear about your day.
I like to think that everything is alright. Because when everyone else thinks that you’re fine, sometimes you forget for a while that you’re not.
I just hope one day you see me. And when you do, your heart stops.
Nobody understands how much I miss you, I miss how much we used to talk, & miss all the things we used to do. I try not to admit it to myself that I still feel this way. Nobody knows that I still wake up thinking of you each day. I still think of you & I really do miss you. I would give up everything I have to be everything we’re not.
I always had a dream that everything was back to normal.
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A lot more things to say. But all I can do is WRITE.
I love those people who has the same situation as mine.
Somehow we can relate.♥♥♥
I can’t help but think of the past. What happened to make things the way they are now? My mind drifts so very often and I can’t escape this feeling. I just want to scream out to you and tell you what’s on my mind, but I won’t because you never told me what was going through your mind way back then.
I don’t have the words to make you feel better, but I do have the arms to hug you, I have the ears to listen to whatever you want to talk about, and I have a heart that’s aching to see you smile again.
you cannot go back in time.
even if you wish for it with every fiber of your being, your heart and soul, even if you think about it every day, trust me, i know.
And people are always asking how I’m doing, but every question still has you in it. And I never think about you. But you’re always on my mind.
I know you’ve heard that I’m doing just fine, that I’m happy now. But if you only knew what I still feel for you, I’ve pretended well, I tried being happy for once.
I don’t think I’ll ever be able to completely break down your wall. Even though I let you right through mine.
I keep thinking I’m over it. But then, if I go somewhere around a lot of people, I’m always looking for you.
I miss you, so much that it hurts. I’ve never missed anyone like this. I miss you so much, that I would do anything, just to spend five minutes with you.
& maybe 5 minutes meant nothing to you, but it sure as hell meant everything to me.
I guess what makes me different from most girls is that I’m not the type to squeal all over you and I don’t ask for your attention at all times. I know what I want and I know how to get it but I don’t hurt people along the way. I can be a bitch but I’m also a weird obnoxious loser, but hey, that’s the truth in me. I guess you can say I’m complicated but I’d rather be difficult than easy any day. I can be hard to figure out at times but if you know me, I’m not that much of a confusing person. So why don’t you actually open up your heart instead of just your eyes and take a look at me, then tell me that you love me.
Whenever I’m around you I feel like I’m letting my guard down. It’s dangerous, but still a strangely easy thing to do.
At times you drive me insane and most of the time you make me smile but one thing’s for sure, you’re like a song stuck in my mind. Sometimes you’re a screamo song and I just want to shut you up but at times you’re like a lullaby that plays the tune of my twisted heart.
There’s so many things I have to say. But I’d stay up all night, just to hear about your day.
I like to think that everything is alright. Because when everyone else thinks that you’re fine, sometimes you forget for a while that you’re not.
I just hope one day you see me. And when you do, your heart stops.
Nobody understands how much I miss you, I miss how much we used to talk, & miss all the things we used to do. I try not to admit it to myself that I still feel this way. Nobody knows that I still wake up thinking of you each day. I still think of you & I really do miss you. I would give up everything I have to be everything we’re not.
I always had a dream that everything was back to normal.
--
A lot more things to say. But all I can do is WRITE.
I love those people who has the same situation as mine.
Somehow we can relate.♥♥♥
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